I have so neglected you! 6 Flying Pigs Oinked
angelblaze83 posted on April 26th, 2008

I was talking to Winn the other day on facebook.. (facebook has this really new feature where you can chat with peeps online as well now) and i was saying.. gosh..its been ages since i last blogged.. i thought i would have more time on my hands once i finished the gruelling part of my career but i am sadly mistaken.. I have now come to realization that i am and will always be busy.. I was also telling Winn how bad i feel for not visiting all of you.. But she said “Aiyah thank God for facebooklor…then we know you haven’t mati yet..” hahahahha… i am thanking my lucky stars i am still in contact with those whom i got to know when i first started blogging.. You know who you are!! I am so not popular now.. like SO NOT popular! No one visits anymore!! hahaha…

Question: If i sell stuff here, would people bother buying it? Some of my old stuff which may seem cool to others!

Its been a tough couple of months.. With juggling files and trying hard not to screw up.. Work just keeps piling..and the heart just keeps becoming distant and colder from the job.. Not sure what it is, but i think the realization has finally set in that i may not be quite suited for the job.. I have always wanted a career change.. but its so hard trying to make the decision.. WHY? Its annoying me alot.. Day in, Day out, I kind of dread going to work. But I still do my job because i am paid to.. But i was posed this question by a friend one day..Why are you doing this job? I said I am doing it for the money. Not because of the passion and zeal for it anymore, but for the money.

The parents disapprove.. They don’t show it, but deep down i think they feel my degree is a waste.. All the money and studying.. The boyfriend thinks that i can’t do it.. his own personal opinion is that i am not suited for the job..He thinks that the office environment, air-cond, own room, high speed internet connection is my cup of tea..But my heart and passion has always been to do humanitarian work..I want to be on the field.. Work with an NGO, disaster relief, United Nations if possible..(though thats quite out of my league because i haven’t had enough training or expertise or skill) as long as i know i am doing something for the cause.. I have so much passion in wanting to help people. But that’s not seen by others. I keep telling the parents and the boyfriend, whats the point in me going against all odds to look for a job in this field, if not for the fact i truly have the passion in wanting to make a difference and help those in need.. It kinda hurts that the boyfriend doesn’t think i can make it, but i suppose in some ways he knows me..

I am quite determined to prove him wrong.. Just don’t know how.. and when it would be…

General Election 2008 1
angelblaze83 posted on March 8th, 2008

This year’s General Election quiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiite scary…… The opposition winning landslide victories everywhere…I suppose its about time for the relevant bodies to sit up and do something.. The public has MADE SOME NOISE…

More scary news: PAS to implement Hudud Laws in Kedah? Here

Cute girl… 1
angelblaze83 posted on January 23rd, 2008

My sister found this and sent this to me.. Ahh.. cute children… And the things parents do to either humiliate them, or they really love them to the extent that they appreciate their talent, that they want the whole world to see…Very cute! She’s from Malaysia… And check out the video at the bottom too, apparently this is the same girl at 14months..

Bye…. 2 Flying Pigs Oinked
angelblaze83 posted on January 10th, 2008

I write this with a tug or two in my heart.. I was never close to her… But when i found out she was gone, i couldn’t help feeling sad.. I went to university with her, attended the same classes with her, but never hung out.. We moved in different circle of friends… But whats certain is that, whenever we bumped into each other on the streets in UK, we’d say hello, how’s everything and all.. In fact, since we came back to Malaysia, i never bumped into her at all… It’s a shame i never got to know her better.. In a way i regret not going to her memorial service, but me being me, i stupidly couldn’t find my way to Subang, and never thought of asking any of my friends whether they were going there.. Stupid as usual… I hate my lack of navigational skills, not being able to find my way around easily..

I know she IS loved by many, and i know she will be missed by many.. I cannot imagine how her family is dealing with it.. I cannot imagine how her close friends are dealing with the loss of a best friend.. But i trust, with God’s strength and comfort, they will deal with it in their own way.. Rest in peace Shu Zanne.. God, please give me the privilege of a second chance in getting to know her better the next time we meet..

Started work.. :( 2 Flying Pigs Oinked
angelblaze83 posted on January 10th, 2008

I just started working, and its overwhelming.. I stick by my plans of being a rich tai-tai who belly dances and bakes and cooks for my hubby! First day of work, i was quite relaxed, with nothing much to do.. but come the 2nd day, things started picking up… by the 3rd day, i almost wanted to breakdown crying at home.. I didn’t know anything, i was asking stupid wrong questions, and i was doing the wrong things.. I still harbour hopes of my boyfriend striking it rich and becoming a successful diplomat…

What’s good is that i have my own room!! Some aren’t that lucky though.. no room but cubicle oni… But i don’t really know how to describe it, but my room walls have very strategically placed glass panels that for some reason, the person on my left or right can see my monitor depending on which direction i tilt it more towards!! *sigh* must be careful… but then again, i should be working hard right? *wink*

Dowan to wooooork!! *sob…sob* 3 Flying Pigs Oinked
angelblaze83 posted on December 26th, 2007

I’m starting work next week… not so happy now.. i wanna be a rich tai tai (rich wife) that cooks and bakes for my husband and learn striptease and bellydance for my husband…

Happy!! 4 Flying Pigs Oinked
angelblaze83 posted on November 24th, 2007

I know i haven’t been around lately.. but i am now from time to time.. I have been really busy with filing papers, and my recent trip to Eastern Europe.. I finally finished my chambering, for some of you who don’t know, and was called to the Malaysian bar on the 22.11.2007 which was yes, a few days ago!!! so i am now a LAWYER! hahaahah…

As some of you may already know, i aspire to be a rich tai-tai, that can enable me to open a restaurant/bistro, and have my own business, but i can’t do that, because i haven’t even gotten the rich husband! So now i am faced with the task of looking for a job, that pays reasonably well.. Anybody willing to pay me more than rm2,500 per month? oh and i don’t have to stay back late and all, because i don’t want to! hehehe… or anyone wants to marry someone who can bake, cook, and do some house chores, though i’d rather supervise a cleaning lady to do it… oh and run my own business…

In the mean time, i am HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY doing nothing..hence the little clip i have inserted above! Enjoy!!

ps: even my bible verse on the sidebar is related to the topic! I swear i didn’t set it!!

Oi! 7 Flying Pigs Oinked
angelblaze83 posted on October 19th, 2007

Ok quick update..i am still alive, and still around.. Will update soon!

Hi! Hi! 3 Flying Pigs Oinked
angelblaze83 posted on September 8th, 2007

Just a quick hello.. and i am still alive.. one more month to go!!

Hellooooo!! 8 Flying Pigs Oinked
angelblaze83 posted on August 6th, 2007

Its been a long long time since i last updated my blog.. And its been really obvious.. I met a friend the other day, and he said i haven’t been updating my blog.. It shows i have been really busy lor..

What have i been up to lately.. lets see.. bogged down with work.. Going to court as usual.. trying to recover from a round of flu and cough and sorethroat..it seems to be the only thing i am being now.. SICK.. eyes are watery and the throat scratchy..

Manage to watch Transformers 2 times, and still waiting for the right time to watch Simpsons.. No kaki (company) to watch with.. Have got a new pc in the chambering room (ie: a room where all the chambering students sit and hang out and do work..kinda like our room..) the pc is pretty much the one i sit at.. not really dedicated to me, but its meant to be used by everyone..just so happen, the location is a bit far from the others.. Its good in a way, then i can get some work done, and i have a wee bit privacy..

Forgot to bring camera to take pictures of the amazing buffet i just pigged out on!! so piggie!! i have been really lazy as a blogger.. OK OK i get the message Simple American.. I will check out PICASA.. its PICASA right? not PICASO…

LB are u still in KL? shits.. i should have been more attentive, to try to catch with you.. my bad!! If you are, maybe can meet up? but if u aren’t its ok still, because u’re still deep in my heart!

I have about two months left before i finish my chambering.. Time flies by so quickly.. I could remember it seemed as if yesterday i was just complaining how i couldn’t cope with work.. *sigh*